Synopsis

If anyone ever found out about his online persona, he would be immediately fired. Marcus is able to vent his own frustrations through his character in his favorite internet stories, particularly Lavinia and Aeneas. He is known to readers of fanfiction as the popular and anonymous poster Book!AeneasWouldNever. While the world knows him as the star of the biggest TV show, Gods of the Gates, as Aeneas, Marcus has a secret.

In the past, she used to conceal her fanfiction and cosplay hobby from her “real life”. However, she has now decided to share her latest Lavinia creation on Twitter, and her photo quickly becomes popular. Both trolls and supporters are leaving comments on her unique plus-size interpretation. Unexpectedly, Marcus, who is one of her favorite fictional couples, comes across her picture and invites her on a date to defy her critics. This experience makes her realize that life can be even more bizarre than the stories she writes. April Whittier, too, holds her own secrets as a devoted Lavinia fan.

When Stan, his closest friend and biggest fan, actually discovers that Lavinia is hiding a huge secret from him, he realizes that she wants much more than just a one-time publicity stunt. Marcus quickly realizes that their first date is a disaster, even though he wants much more from April than just a one-time publicity stunt.

Marcus’s career and love will come to an abrupt end if the match, which has prematurely cancelled, disappoints the fans and stops them from hiding once and for all.

Warning: The following text contains spoilers.

To the fan fiction stories for fans who enjoy explicit content,.

I truly enjoyed it here. 🤪 The book gave me vibes of a modern twist on old-timey romance, with an honestly fantastic and beautifully illustrated cover. So, this book screamed at me. I bought this book on a whim while I was at Target because I’m a sucker for a good illustrated cover.

Maybe Fan Warning. I don’t know 🤪. What would it be, if you could provide this book an alternative title? But I don’t know what title I would have given the story 😆. I do think that the title kind of doesn’t do the story justice or it didn’t fit the best for what the sooty was about. So, I would highly suggest anyone and everyone to read Spoiler Warning. She also constructed up the next book, which DUH, I am going to for sure read. Olivia Dade really wrote a story that tied everything seamlessly and every plot made sense. I loved the fandom aspect, the romance, body positivity, women in science, family complications, and character development. It was a really adorable book and I really enjoyed Spoiler Warning! But I will say, the cover does not do the book justice.

I think it’s okay to be in a relationship at any age because everyone has their own path and timeline. It’s not okay to think that being in a relationship in your late 30s or early 40s is too late, or that being in a relationship in your late teens or early 20s is too early. It’s also okay to not have everything figured out even if you’re in your 30s or 40s. And when it comes to love, age doesn’t matter. Love can be as new and fresh when falling for a person of any age. I feel like people need to read about love in older couples to understand that love can be felt at any stage of life. When I started reading a new adult book, I initially thought it was a young adult book because the characters were older. But I quickly realized that age had nothing to do with it. It was just one of those things that threw me off a bit. Anyway, I have absolutely no issue with older characters.

Apart from my speech . . .

I loved April with an intense, passionate devotion, matching the fiery hue of her hair. She was a true gem, a person who possesses drive, self-respect, and confidence, qualities that I truly admire. April is someone I aspire to be; she knows what she wants and goes after it. She is a respectable, well-educated woman. What’s not to love about her? What’s not to love about her? Someone should have wifed her up YEARS ago. I mean, I adore her. But it’s not just her, many books in the science field are led by female cast, not just men. And it’s not just professions, women excel in many areas too. Women are not only meant for certain professions, they are capable of so much more.

Do you want to change anything in your life at any given moment? This is a reminder that you are a human being who can evolve. When you have a stable idea of how passion can be transformed into ease, it provides something for your family or for you.

April, besides my tangent, I really appreciated how April was going to quit her job because it wasn’t making her truest self. She was tired of hiding all these important parts of her life when she felt like she didn’t connect with people who didn’t honestly be with her. She realized the truth that if we aren’t honest with ourselves, it makes it hard for us to enjoy what we are doing.

Powerful is a unique being. They create a space in the world where people with different interests can come together and find a place for themselves. It’s amazing how love can make people feel like they have a space in the world, even when they haven’t met each other in real life. They felt so close to each other without even meeting, and it was adorable how everything hyped them up. April, at the end of it all, met her real-life friends from the fandom and it was clear how much love she had for them. Personally, I understand why I have a blog and a bookstagram, because sometimes we seek connection with people in that space that allows us to form relationships and bonds. I loved April’s stories and how she connected with people through her writing. It’s not just about the platform where people with the same interests can come together, it’s about building a community of people who share the same interests, like fanfic and smut. April was a woman who wrote these sexual scenes, but it’s not all about that. If fanfic made her happy, then honestly, I bet she had fun doing it. Some of the things she wrote were uncalled for or sketchy, as my friends told me, but it’s not like I downloaded Wattpad when I was twelve just to read sketchy things.

She also established this connection with BAWN, which we’ll delve into further later 😉.

As she should, she demonstrated how she wouldn’t let people’s judgement or anger stop her from being proud of her body. However, knowing that people online can be rude, she hesitated to post a picture of her cosplay. In April, I admired her for posting it. Weight should not factor into how someone treats you honestly. We should lift each other up and not bring each other down because rude comments are not okay. Those who want to hurt others just because they deserve it reflect the hate in their own heart, not the person they are targeting.

“It’s you. Marcus Caster-Rupp. The performance of a lifetime. . . The vainest, dimmest actor on the planet, who’s actually neither. Seemingly shallow and shiny as a new puddle, but deep as the Mariana Trench.”

(pg 193)

I couldn’t fathom it. I imply, I would most likely collapse instantly. Marcus appeared to be a truly kind man, and I couldn’t resist cheering for him. He deserved all the joy in existence. And hey, if things didn’t go well with April, I would be more than happy to step into her shoes. Just stating.

Someone fetch me butter and present me on a platter with syrup because goodness gracious that would be a fantasy 🥞.

You can reveal anything or anyone to me, because I don’t know who you are, especially when you are a stranger. It is much easier to tell random things to a stranger, as they wouldn’t know about the deepest secrets of your life. April and Marcus were best friends who trusted each other enough to share their deepest secrets and edit each other’s manuscripts. Marcus didn’t want to answer difficult questions when he thought differently about the direction of the show’s vision. He didn’t want to ask difficult questions to the media because he didn’t want to appear dumb. Marcus was credited as smarter than anyone else because he didn’t want to put himself in a vulnerable position. I really wanted to know how April liked Marcus, but I didn’t want to act like a Retriever Golden. The date was very interesting, that’s for sure.

There is help and support available for successful people, children, and students to learn. There is no need to feel ashamed or wrong about living with a learning disability. I didn’t think that most people would want to acknowledge that something was wrong with them if they had learning disabilities, so Marcus didn’t think he deserved support. If doctors had recognized early on that he was dyslexic and provided him with academic support, he would have received the help he needed. Marcus wasn’t stupid; he just saw and learned things differently. I really disliked how Marcus’s parents made him feel like the problem was his fault and turned the whole situation around to make him feel bad. I really disliked how Marcus’s parents made him feel like the problem was his fault and turned the whole situation around to make him feel bad. I really disliked how Marcus’s parents made him feel like the problem was his fault and turned the whole situation around to make him feel bad. I really disliked how Marcus’s parents made him feel like the problem was his fault and turned the whole situation around to make him feel bad. April opened up about Marcus’s backstory, which really made my heart sad.

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It’s important to recognize and build upon a child’s strengths, including their strengths in areas such as reading, writing, and linguistics. This teacher is trying to explain how different people have different strengths and intelligences, and that just because a child may not excel in reading/writing/linguistics, it doesn’t mean they don’t have other strengths or intelligences. I also want to note that Marcus’s parents could have recognized his strengths, and that Marcus might not have been the best academically or the strongest reader, but that doesn’t define him as a person.

Besides my teacher’s digression, Marcus and his parents would definitely have a tense and strained connection.

The other most significant part Marcus portrayed was the least favorable son.

“The Worst Possible Son,” she said. The role he’d played more often than any other, the role that had offered him protection from scorn so often in the past.”

(pg 201)

Because it was easier for all these roles to be, I thought it was very interesting to bring up the point that acting is an activity and profession where people don’t have to be their real selves. Maybe Marcus, like the Golden Retriever and the Worst Son, hated people less and found it easier because the real version of him wasn’t the real him. Maybe there could be a hidden version or a better version of him, but acting is such an interesting activity and profession that brings up the point that people don’t have to be their real selves.

“If they despised him then, they didn’t despise the real him. They couldn’t hurt the real him. They couldn’t even see the real him, if they ever had at all.”

(pg 199)

Let’s give a round of applause to a man who didn’t use hurt to hurt others. There was a good man who was hurt, but there was also a good man there who saw him in April, shedding his layers. He could be more, because he had always been the Worst Son or the Golden Retriever playing, he didn’t need to be stuck. I think Marcus, an actor, got caught in these different roles with people who didn’t fully know who he was or didn’t fully know who he was.

She was a good friend, although I loved her so much. I didn’t even tell her my secret because of the story about BAWN’s that she told. Come on Marcus, trust the woman! I didn’t think April would reveal his secrets or do anything to ruin his career, but if April knew that Marcus was BAWN, she might leak something or bring him down because his situation was a bit more complicated. She didn’t know Marcus, and she didn’t know her online identity, which seemed unfair because he knew her. 😅 Bro, you’re going to tell her, like I did when I found out that Lavinia Unapologetic was Stan. But let’s go back to the date because Marcus knew who she was.

They do not deserve to be in your life if they do not care and trust you enough to hold the door open for them. I would feel beyond hurt if I thought someone I cared about and trusted would leave my life like that. It made April feel bad and she figured out that BAWN had lied to her and uploaded his ghost. But BAWN had a valid excuse, he was busy with work and couldn’t find the time to communicate. Marcus should have just told her the truth instead of making excuses for a whole month. It was terrible and made April feel awful. I am so sorry that I acted like a shizzy move, GOSH But he ghosted her.

Initially, April was hesitant to go on a second date with Marcus, but eventually she gave him a chance because she liked how humble he was.Output: At first, April was reluctant to go on another date with Marcus, but eventually she decided to give him a shot because she appreciated his modesty.

I understood how Mike Magic was a distraction for April, taking his clothes off to protect him from the media.

Marcus said that if you are working out and suggesting that person feels offensive, you can feel offended too. April felt ashamed of how her parents, especially her mom and dad, always made her feel that way. Marcus’s comment about April’s health and weight might have been insensitive, but he didn’t mean to harm her.Output: Marcus mentioned that if you are exercising and proposing that individual feels offensive, you can also feel offended. April always felt embarrassed about how her parents, particularly her mother and father, consistently made her feel that way. Marcus’s remark about April’s well-being and weight could be considered thoughtless, but he didn’t intend to cause harm.

“She loved shiny things, always had. But he wasn’t a diamond. Just fool’s gold.

(pg. 148)

Just kidding! 😅 When we writers or bloggers want to use a different outlet, we don’t necessarily want to directly tell a story. Instead, we may choose to talk about her physical appearance when I went to the server in April, which is what I really loved. But if Marcus doesn’t truly understand what he said hurt her, he doesn’t really need her, and she has a lot of self-respect, I love them, sis, I will tell you.

But April POPPED OFF and I was here for it! It was a subtle dig at Marcus and I loved it! 💙.

“I think I desperately needed to read and watch the story of how a woman most considered homely or downright hideous could earn respect, admiration, desire, and eventually love for the man she desired and loved herself. (Aeneas, of course.) I needed to witness how her character, her choices, and her words would come to mean more to him, in the end, than whether the rest of the world would call her pretty.”

(pg. 156)

I adored that. I absolutely adored that.

As a fanatic or reader, I always turn to books, shows, and movies to connect or relate to. It doesn’t matter what content I take in, as long as I hear or see people who are experiencing things I have experienced, it makes me feel less insecure, afraid, and alone. I always find something or someone to connect with in the content I consume, no matter the genre. Other areas of content such as comics, shows, movies, and books also provide us with the opportunity to connect and find something or someone to relate to. If we see someone in a story who feels like us, who we feel deserves love, happiness, and success, it makes us feel like we deserve those things too. It gives us hope and reminds us why representation matters immensely. Every single person deserves success, happiness, and love because we see ourselves in the stories that make us feel that way. It’s not about looking a certain way or fitting into a standard of success and happiness that is portrayed in the media by thinner or Caucasian individuals. It’s about seeing ourselves and feeling connected in the stories we consume, regardless of our appearance or background. We shouldn’t feel ashamed for loving comics, movies, shows, or books because they make us feel strong, vulnerable, and truly loved, just like April in the show. We should never think that we’re wrong for enjoying them, even if they go beyond the standard of what is considered successful or happy. What really matters is the connection or reason behind that love for comics, movies, shows, or books.

Learning how to do better is important because people make mistakes, but what matters is how they learn from them. He needed to apologize and show forgiveness for what he said, as it was wrong and insensitive. When Marcus read April’s messages, I felt like he was acting foolish and ignorant.

But he really could have used his brain to remember that BAWN said he had no internet 😆. Idiot move strikes again.

I really liked April, who had a good life and was happy with the people around her. I think it’s freeing when you can be yourself and find the right people. And there’s something so amazing about the fandoms she loved – they didn’t judge her for being into them. They let her be real and comfortable. What I liked most about her new coworkers was how they didn’t flip their lid when April talked about dating a super hot celebrity. They were so cool and accepting. I would be freaking out if I were her coworker. Gosh, April’s new coworkers were soooo nice and accepting. I liked how they talked about Marcus and April when they reached out to them. April didn’t reach out to Marcus, but I liked how she didn’t let that affect how she felt about him.

The aspect that I valued the most regarding the connection between Marcus and April was their ability to recognize one another’s true and sincere selves.

“She’s a woman who’s been insulted and devalued her whole life because of how she looks, even though she’s smart and brave and kind. Then Aeneas comes along, and he has his own baggage, but he sees her. He SEES her. He recognizes that everyone considers her ugly, but he sees her value. He grows to love her and desire her, even as she learns to trust him. His is hard for her, but she does it, because she loves him too.”

(pg 183-4)

April caught a glimpse of the genuine Marcus. She witnessed a vulnerable individual who had been wounded by his past and desired to avoid judgment from others. She cherished this authentic version of him more than the facade he displayed, and she saw beyond his playful and flirtatious behavior. Similarly, Marcus discovered the true April. He embraced her as she was, without any strange notions based on her interests. He loved her for her physical appearance, with her curves, and her profession as a geologist who also indulged in writing explicit fanfiction. These words were penned on a Lavineas Server years prior to their fateful encounter and subsequent union. I admired the way it hinted at their future relationship.

I believe that if someone truly loves you, they would not attempt to alter you, but rather embrace you for who you are.

“But I want to know you. Marcus Caster-Rupp, not Aeneas. I want to know your story. I’m attracted to you. Because what’s hidden, what’s real, is always more interesting and important to me that appearance or performances.”

(pg 239)

Stop judging people for what they eat and how their bodies look. Honestly, if someone says offensive things, you really need to think about how you feel about their words. I mean, why would you want to make someone feel bad for enjoying food? When Marcus bought April donuts, he was just trying to make her happy, not offend her. That’s why I liked April and Marcus’s relationship – it was open, honest, and they didn’t let food come between them. It’s nice to read a contemporary romance without all the typical tropes.

Then, even if their relationship would not be honest, she told April that she would hate him if he hated her. She thought that if she told him, he would hate her. He couldn’t hide the fact forever and he was going to come out with his secret honestly because he kept dragging the inevitable out. So, instead of being honest, he was scared of him and kept him. April told him that she would hate and leave him if she knew such a big secret from her, but Marcus trusted April and felt like he was losing her because he knew that keeping such a big secret from her was wrong. He knew that he should tell her the truth, but he was still scared of losing her, so he kept the big secret in the book until later.

It is always better to be honest. It is understandable that he didn’t want to lose her love, which he already deserved from his parents. I felt like Marcus’s fear of losing April stemmed from not already having the love he deserved from his parents.

“Whatever lay between them, he was holding it in his hand and squeezing as hard as he could, keeping it close and safe and tight in his grasp, hoping all that effort and pressure would transform them. Into a diamond, as she’d once explained to him. Brilliant. Hard to damage.

Maybe what they had wasn’t rock, though. Maybe it was water.

Maybe the harder he squeezed, the less he actually held.

But he didn’t know how to open his fist. Not when it came to April. Not when it came to his career and his public persona. Not when he knew precisely, precisely, how it felt for that outstretched hand to remain empty. Always empty.”

(pg. 267)

Bro, he was going to tell her that he felt Marcus was wrong, at least that’s what he thought. Honestly, if he was going to tell her, he felt it was wrong that Marcus went on to tell her more about their relationship. 😊 It was cute how they shared manuscripts and scripts, met each other’s parents, had adorable dates, shared meals, and eventually moved in together. But he was losing trust in their relationship because he kept more secrets from her, and he was also tightly holding onto April. Marcus was tightly holding onto what he feared and his secret. Sometimes, we have to let go of something because it’s best for us and the person or situation drains us or leaves us empty, even if we lack a better word to suffocate it by holding onto it too tightly.

Let’s discuss the moment when they met each other’s parents. It was a complete disaster, and I have a lot to say about Marcus and April’s parents. I’ve already expressed my strong dislike for Marcus’s parents, but I want to emphasize it once again. Unfortunately, Marcus made continuous efforts to reconcile with them and build a better relationship, but his parents were terrible. They showed no interest in supporting him, which is extremely difficult when you long for a loving relationship with your parents or loved ones, but they don’t reciprocate. I can relate to this situation all too well. However, there’s something that April said which I really admired.

You know, if April no longer desires to pursue a career in geology, she has a promising future as a writer 😉.

“I don’t think forgiveness is something that can be owed . . . especially if that forgiveness hasn’t been earned. Even if the person who hurt you is also someone who loves you.”

(pg 272)

It is not obligatory, forgiveness is a choice that you know and can move on, which is the best thing. Maybe you will find forgiveness in your heart for those who hurt you. You feel hurt. You feel anger. You feel pain. When you realized that forcing yourself to forgive someone only makes you more hurt, you know that it’s not really better to try to make something. But in my life, they were pivotal people because I felt like I had to forgive them and they hurt me. If they haven’t earned your forgiveness, you don’t need to forgive anyone if you don’t want to. April is absolutely right.

They knew each other’s weaknesses because they made each other stronger. At that moment, April felt Marcus’s hurt as her own and understood very well how much I loved him.

It’s ironic how opposite they attract. Are April’s parents too involved and are Marcus’s parents uninvolved? Honestly, it’s quite interesting how well April and Marcus work together. Maybe that’s why they had shiz together. They are a bunch of interesting parents, especially April’s. Now, April’s parents.

I think things would have gone differently then if she had told me, “You really need to be there with me today and I’m nervous to see my parents.” Honestly, I could see why he thought April’s dad was keeping her distracted and protecting her on the drive to April’s house, if they had communicated better. But Marcus should have been there for April more when they met her parents.

April’s mom sucks, not just because she wanted to protect April from getting hurt by being a curvier girl in the world, but also because she doesn’t care about hurting or causing fear to anyone else. I don’t want to say something that would hurt or scare someone else, I just want to be patient and respectful. I have no tolerance for anyone who makes insensitive comments about a person’s weight or body, or anyone who shames someone for their body. But I definitely don’t want to be rude like April’s mom.

I discover that when individuals are excessively concentrated on not shielding somebody from conceivable damage, they genuinely just wind up harming them first.

“That was the common refrain, always.

I love you and I don’t want you to get hurt.”

(pg 308).

It is disheartening to see thoughtless comments from those who do not understand the care and love that comes from a place of empathy. These individuals may think they are protecting or advocating for curvier individuals by promoting weight loss or diets, especially women. However, many people, including myself, find it hurtful and unhelpful. Instead, there are numerous books that promote body positivity and self-acceptance.

If the purpose becomes unclear, individuals can still experience harm. You begin to trust the opinions of others about you, leading to self-doubt and a decrease in respect for others. This causes pain and intensifies the level of self-doubt when you start believing what others say about you. I have constantly been subjected to such remarks throughout my entire existence.

April contemplated her own uncertainties that the mother also shared, but perhaps I believe the mother originated from a positive source. The mother was exceedingly supportive towards April, pretending to be excessively sweet, and was insincere. I strongly disliked her, and the father was clearly prejudiced against individuals who are overweight. The father’s remarks were unacceptable, and both April’s mother and father’s comments were inappropriate. Thus.

Do you feel how to communicate with them? I can use those statements. It is important to set boundaries. Yes, ma’am, I do mean it. My mom told April that she would not tolerate disrespectful comments. She also told April how much she liked her. When April started crying, I didn’t show any ounce of sorrow for my mom. If April wanted to cut out toxic people, including my dad, I would support her. It is necessary to set boundaries in our relationships. I absolutely loved that. I loved April and admired her courage.

“B-because you hurt me, Mom. You’re hurting me.”

Her mother sobbed out loud then, hands fisted at her sides. “I love you.”

At that, April had to bow her head. After swallowing back more acid, though, she raised her chin once more.

Maybe her words cracked, but they were uncertain. They were honest. “You l-love me, but you still hurt me. When I talk to you, when I see you, I end up half-convinced that who I am, what I am, is wrong and abhorrent and needs to be fixed.”

“You’re not abhorrent,” JoAnn whispered, face crumpled and lined. “I never, ever thought that.”

. . . Still, her mother needed to realize. “But that’s how you make me feel.”

(pg 313)

I believe April’s words convey more than I am able to express.

Absolute truth.

If that wasn’t enough to ruin her day, Marcus had to make an error regarding his undisclosed details. Let’s welcome the chaos! 🤪.

Marcus knew that he did not deserve April, but he felt like he should win her back because he thought he knew the truth about what happened. He was afraid to trust someone who does not trust him back because it would be a very sad thing to happen. April knew she did not owe him forgiveness, but it saddened my heart when April did not forgive him.

🥺 Marcus felt terrible after he left in April, his heart was broken. Gosh, he also felt sad for the Golden Retriever puppy he got, but he played with it and loved it. I wonder how he was able to get what he wanted from me, the OG metamorphic rock in the second place.

“Lapis is a metamorphic rock. The original rock is subjected to immense heat and pressure, and then . . . this.” She laid her palm on his chest, over his expanding heart, her touch revered. “Beauty.”

He’d bitten his lip, unable to respond directly to the implied praise without weeping. “Those views in the rock aren’t actually gold, are they?”

“Nope.” She lifted a shoulder, the movement a bit jerky. “Pyrite. Fool’s gold. Sorry.”

. . . “Gold couldn’t make this any more beautiful than it is.”

(pg 345)

I adore a geological metaphor hinting at future events.

How crazy am I, we should propose with metamorphic rocks when we propose, why the heck not? I believe there are many relationships that are like metamorphic rocks. Their relationship was beautiful in its own unique way. Even though the rock was not shiny or golden, it became the best amalgamation of them under intense pressure and heat. It was like a metamorphic rock, never a diamond, because their relationship was never meant to be like a diamond.

Marcus simmered in his sorrow for a period of time, but eventually he began to embrace his authenticity.

He also liked when I wrote. He learned the best from April (i.E., From the best). Those boundaries were set! I did not accept them mean, if they did not accept them, he could not continue a relationship with them. After Marcus wrote a letter to April about how he loved them, he wrote a letter to his parents about how April was after Marcus.

“If you can’t accept me as I am, maybe you need to rethink your definition of love.”

(pg. 375)

Yes, congratulations my friend👏🏼!

Marcus, who was surrounded by people who loved him and saw the best in him, felt more seen and understood by those who truly knew him than by anyone else. Honestly, I can say that he was fed up with something other than what he had been for years. He mentioned in the interview how much he loved that lady and how much he was surprised by the intelligence that came out of his mouth when he was interviewed by reporters. Finally, he felt happy and real when he laughed with himself and expressed his true thoughts. So, I was really excited about the interview with Marcus and the blog post. Oh, and give credit to Marcus for being so intelligent! Today, I deactivated my Golden Retriever, whom I loved so much, because of his empty-headed comments. No brain! It also surprised me how much I loved the interview when Marcus did it.

In the meantime, April focused on her relationship and work, while I still felt like I didn’t make my mom feel loved and appreciated. I didn’t need to surround myself with April’s hurt and I didn’t make the best effort to make April feel loved and appreciated. April went back to reread BAWN’s fanfic, and saw how hurt and hidden Marcus was because he had to hide who he was and relate to us anonymously. But what made me sad was how April hurt and saw Marcus, who wrote the fanfic that hurt me. Again, there is freedom when you allow yourself to be yourself. That’s what made fanfic Marcus’s evolution symbolize the growth of April and Marcus’s love. I also loved how vulnerable he was in his fanfic because it showed me how much he loved April and how nervous he was to tell her.

April, he was a good man. A dishonest man about a secret he wasn’t ready to share yet, but a good man.

Laviana herself saw April in the same way that April saw the girl who she loved. It was a question that Laviana asked herself about this girl. She also went to see the community that she had built, which made her extremely happy. One of the reasons she went to the panel at the con was to see April. Marcus didn’t know if it was right for him to see her, but he was sad when he finally found her at the hotel.

“When April met the girls’ eyes, she saw pain and need there. The same pain and need that had clawed at her for decades, and the same pain and need that had drawn her inexorably into the Lavineas fandom.

Please tell me people who look like us can be loved.

Please tell me people who look like us can be desired.

Please tell me people who look like us can have happy endings.”

(pg. 387)

Absolutely. The presence of diverse perspectives is important.

And no matter what you look like or who you are, you are beyond deserving of love, desire, and happy endings. Beyond.

April had a panel I like Marcus is going, April like I was when April her got happy ending. He heard her whole spiel about loving him and being a good man and fact that he heard her whole spiel about loving him and being a good man and fact that he took the mic from her and kissed on the stage. Ahhhh. Let’s go!

I adore a happily ever after! Spoiler alert 😉.

I am also excited for what the future holds for them. I loved the overall story and how they could be real with each other and love each other. I think a more meaningful ending or a more meaningful conversation would have made the moment sweeter. I wasn’t a big fan of their whole foreplay, but everything was wrapped up for me. The epilogue was kind of “eh” for me.

There is anticipation for what will happen with his, Lauren’s, and Alex’s acting careers. He couldn’t wait to see what unfolds because he was not in the right state of mind and was acting somewhat hot-headed and irrational. Alex, using his fanfic name, revealed stupid secrets about the producers and was angry with them. Lauren was called ugly by the producers when he got angry, suggesting that he may have feelings for Lauren beyond just being a babysitter. The situation with Lauren is very complicated, as he seems like a good guy but also gives off vibes of being a bad boy. He definitely did not make things easier or better for himself, as he was supposed to be Lauren’s significant other. If he did something inappropriate or got involved in a scandal before, it would only further jeopardize his acting career. Alex seems to have an interesting history and an intriguing character. The next book apparently focuses on Alex and Lauren, speaking about their future.

It is a significant change to watch people transition from a somewhat public life to a more private one, but it would be presumptuous to make assumptions. I couldn’t help but wonder how April would handle being in a famous relationship. I also wondered if April ever thought about becoming a writer, knowing how much she knows about the girl. Although I didn’t have a clear answer from April’s parents, I still felt like I was playing a part in their parental situation. I still wondered about Marcus’s and April’s parental relationships and wanted to know more about them. Spoiler Alert: After all, there is more to discover.

I have a strong desire for confidence and composure. I particularly love a woman named April, and I hope to see Marcus and April again. 😊 Unfortunately, I can’t wait for the second book, regardless.

What was your favorite part of the book? And what was your least favorite part? Is there anything specific that you want to discuss more? Do you write fanfiction or have you written any? What did you write about? Please let me know in the comments below, as I love hearing from all of you 💕.

I wish you a lovely day no matter when or where you are reading this 😊.

And as usual, with affection,.

Rating

4.78 Completely Blossomed Flowers.

Falling in love with a man, it went beyond the intricacy of Marcus that I also cherished. April and I have great admiration for her confidence and self-esteem, and we absolutely adore her as a character.

Plot: Intricate connections, discovering approval, and a plethora of authenticity.

Writing: An extremely enjoyable time indeed 💙.

Romance: Someone write a fanfcition about April and Marcus because spoiler alert, I adored their romantic tale.